So I wrote up a new poem and I put it up! Whoo! Thats awesome.
But I can't help but feel down. My one friend just told me some stuff. And I'm spazzing out about it. I'm not sure what I'm going to do still. And well really. I donno what to do. I'm tired of the little game that my friends are playing on me. I'm not sure I can even call them my friends. I never thought that they would talk about me behind my back. I just want to cry in a corrner and like cut myself. So I don't feel motivated to write or draw. My mood is really bringing me down. I thought last year was hard with all the Sh*t going on. But this year I think is harder. My life never seems to get any better or when I think it does. Well plain and simple. It doesn't... DAH DAH DAHHHH!~ Well, I'm not sure my friends are up set with me or not. And I really feel I should just tell my friend off about how I feel. But then the thing is. I fear I wont be friends with her any more. I really hate this feeling. And I just want to push it away. But I can't. I fear if I tell her she wont want to be my friend. I also feel as if when we did talk she told me too much and now I can't process it right. Also I feel like she didn't take my feelings into count and that I should do the changing not her. Iv'e been friends with her for about 3 almost 4 years now. And I don't want to lose one of my best friends. I feel like the only way I can sort this thought is to like write about it. I don't care if people read this or not. Doesn't matter as long as it helps myself. So you know a little more about me... Ah.... Well. Yeah.

And Jenn if you so god as talk about this to mom I will be pissed. The last thing I need is her to worry. Also I am tired of you telling mom things. If you want to tell her things let me know if it's about me or not. I get so pissed off when I here. "Whats going on! I heard that something happened." Or something along the lines.

UGH! I hate my life right now. I think I will just tell my friends stright up because well. I hate feeling depressed. I rather have a fake relationship with her then non at all. I will change I know I will but most of my life I haven't been able to be a normal child. And I have to grow up now... So hard. I guess I will just skip some of my life. I feel like my friend is trying to grow up to fast and you know I feel like it is really true. -Sigh- I just hope she will talk to me. Or I will be on the monthly waiting list. Go depression! WHOO!

Rawr... I want to write. But I don't know what to write about other then ranting on and on about this. So I should leave this there. Most likely I am going to do some things in my life I regret. I hope this isn't one of them. I need to have a talk with my friends. Badly. Well I guess I can do that at school. So... No harm there. Kinda. I hope I don't cry. I hate cring in front of people. It pisses me off. Even worse when it is my friends. -worrys worrys- Well. I will calm down some. Have a sup of tea later and try not to die. And I will talk to my friends later or maybe on sunday. I should look into that. Well then. I must be off on the yellow brick road. Off to wonderland I go! To that far away place. So maybe I can rest in peace. With no worries at mind. I hope I can be safe.

Wuvz you.

Love,
Wulfbait.(Chickadee.)